“Enough is Enough”

Truth is I haven’t always been a confident, positive and friendly woman that I am today.
As a teen I was so unsure of myself that I would drink to allow myself freedom.
Freedom from feelings of unworthiness, sadness, guilt, shame, pain, loss and well, the list goes on.
Truth is, I hated the way it made me feel and the situations I would get myself into but I also loved the freedom and invincibility,
I believed I felt.
One day I decided enough is enough!
This is not me.
This is not who I am.
I don’t HAVE to drink every time I’m out.
I don’t HAVE to drink to have fun, for people to like me, to speak what I couldn’t speak when I was sober, to hide my feelings.
I gave myself permission to stop running from my feelings, to be OK in my own skin and proud of my truth.
I love a cold beer on a hot summer day and I love a red wine with dinner.
Sometimes a couple.
And ya know what…. Truth be told, I do find myself falling into habits of drinking when shit gets hard!
When I try and hide from my emotions.
The key now though is, Awareness.
I’m not perfect.
I’m me.
Now though,
I am aware.
I’m aware of myself, the signs, the feelings, the thoughts and I’m aware of my actions I choose to take to steer myself back to whom I choose to be.
Not how I was programmed to be or how I’ve learnt to “cope.” Two very powerful words.
I am confident, positive and friendly because I am happy in my own skin and am AWARE of
how I’m feeling and what triggers me….
What habits do you have where you find yourself hiding from your emotions or your truth?

Leave a Reply

Your email address will not be published. Required fields are marked *